Happy Birthday Lulu!
It might sound cliché, but I am being absolutely honest when I say that I do not know where this year went. I cannot, at all, believe that it has even been an entire year since Lucia entered into the world. The addition of Lucy has brought so much sleep deprivation, chaos, fun, and love that it feels like she has been here such a short time and forever simultaneously.
I look back at the months before Lucy was born, as I sat first at home on bed rest, and then in the Antepartum Unit at United Hospital. I can remember having such angry, bitter thoughts. Thoughts that nothing in the world would ever be worth having those months stripped, stolen from me. Short months. Oh so short months in the grand scheme of life. I thought that I would never be able to find love for this unborn baby as I had for Eli. How funny of me, really. How naïve. The moment I saw that precious, tiny baby girl in her warmer, I was in love. I was so in love with her, and I had not even touched her. When I held her for the first time, I thought that I would burst with love. Instead of feeling less love for her, I felt so much love and protection for her that it was overwhelming.
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| Happy Birth Day, baby girl! |
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| Staying warm at Children's Hospital NICU in St. Paul. |
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| The loves of my life!!! Eli loves Lucy so much! |
And that love has continued to grow, every day, as she has grown. I have felt blessed beyond measure to have the privilege of caring for Lucy. A privilege that I do not take for granted, as I know that there was a very real possibility that she would not make it through the pregnancy. So now, it has been a year since her arrival. I have tears in my throat thinking about it. There are tears of happiness at how healthy and happy and beautiful she is. There are also tears of sadness as I realize how fleeting time is. I do not have a baby anymore. I have a toddler. A beautiful, healthy, independent, passionate toddler. And although I am sad that the first year is now gone, I am filled with excitement at all the years I have ahead. All the years that Lucy has ahead. Happy first birthday, Lucia Sage!
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| Sweet little lady. |
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| Getting bigger every day! |
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| Happy birthday, big girl! |
"From morning light to starry night, no matter what you do, make it joyful, make it fun. Happy, happy birthday to you".
Marianne Richmond
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